its not my will. its his.

and i knew this time would come where sooner or later, hes gonna leave for school. &&this is probably one of thee hardest thing i'll ever go through . and one of those touchy subjects that just make you cry everytime you think about it..

i know things will work out in the end. faith&trust&everything will help keep this relationship. i think the thing that makes this hard is that ive never known what it feels like to have someone leave me.. i know that it will not be a good bye but it will be a see you later. four years of school without him & only seeing him when he comes back may be hard, but honestly deep down.. i know me and him together will make this work. i know i'll miss him everyday, but theres nothing wrong with that. :) hahaha. they do say, "ABSENCE MAKES THE HEART GROW FONDER" .. this definitely will be a growing experience for both of us. but ill be behind chris 200% of the way :D im proud of my boy getting into ucla. :) and i'll be there for him every step of the way and every decision he makes!(: &i know that he wants the college experience so i'll support him all the way. i'll wait four years...and i'll wait more if i have to.. :) i'd do anything to make this relationship last cause he's helped me realize more about myself and others. hes made me see things differently and helped me change into a better person. :) im so thankful and blessed to have him & i cant lose that kind of person in my life.

and after writing this.. i think four years will be nothing!(; it'll be a piece of cake. well maybe not that easy.. hahaha!(: but i know that everything will work out in the end.
GODSPLANANDGODSWILL ! PLANS TO PROSPER YOU AND NOT TO HARM YOU. PLANS TO GIVE YOU HOPE & A FUTURE.
i think ive got it good & i have nothing to worry about.. :)