Friday, January 23, 2009


bible verse of the day: Philippians 4:6-7 from the NIV
Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.

okay(: so i think this week has been very hard & difficult to get through. first of all, i was sick during the 4day weekend ): it was horrible, but i did get better. also with volleyball and the team. that was something i struggled with too. the last struggle i went through was me & god.

so going more in depth with my struggles.. i'll talk about volleyball & the team first. so this past wednesday we had our very first real season game @ presidio. im the captain of the team and man is the role & responsibilities of being captain hard. hahaha(: but seriously, it is. i was so mad that game just because i wanted to win really bad. i felt so bad after though because why should i get mad at people about a game? i didnt feel like a captain, i felt like all i cared about was myself and winning. that night, i talked with someone about it and realized more my attitude sucked and that i didnt act like a captain. the captain of a team has to lead the team & be a role model. and one thing that person said to me was that: "with great power comes great responsibility" and i think that its definitely true. being a captain isnt easy, but i think i can do it because i wanna help build our team together and have team chemistry. be one team together. but that was it for volleyball. oh! and the next day i apologized for the way i acted. so yeah :)

the other struggle i had was with me & god. i think it was really hard for me to be able to have time with god. it wasnt hard actually, its just i didnt. i know i should have read my bible more or prayed more. i prayed but not enough. i think thats one main thing i need to work on with myself cause my relationship with god doesnt grow if i dont read the bible, pray, etc. the relationship goes nowhere. so my goal this year is to be either reading the bible, praying, etc. everyday so that my faith grows and i can share with other people. i havent started yet so i think i'll start doing it TONIGHT!(:

so those were my struggles of the week.. some were harder to come over but im managing. hopefully i dont have any this upcoming week and i will be able to maintain my goal & keep my faith growing.(:

Monday, January 19, 2009

new year. new me

so as 2008 passes. a new year comes along.. last year was such an exciting time. it was the first time i had made new year's resolutions, a new step in life, and what god had shown me last year was extremely over the top.

(picture of everyone at retreat 2008)

just recently our church had a retreat. and man oh man was that thee BEST by FAR! i honestly believe that newstart had grown more as one body in unity. seeing how we had gotten closer&slowly grew more as one family made things different. not worse but better. the notes we wrote to each other & just reading mine made me realize that im really loved and cared for. im so grateful to have such amazing people in my life.

2 Thessalonians 1:3-4 from the MESSAGE: You need to know, friends, that thanking God over and over for you is not only a pleasure; it's a must. We have to do it. Your faith is growing phenomenally; your love for each other is developing wonderfully. Why, it's only right that we give thanks. We're so proud of you; you're so steady and determined in your faith despite all the hard times that have come down on you.

i think as the new year comes along.. i really wanna grow another step in my faith & relationships. i've really learned last year that we go through hardships and grow stronger from it. things are never perfect, but im always striving to become close. one person who's really helped me grow is chris, my boyfriend. he's helped me grow as a person & that no matter what, he'll always be there for me.

JAMES 1: 2-3 from NIV : Consider it pure joy, my brothers, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith develops perseverance.

so 2 days ago, i wasnt feeling great, but i wasnt feeling bad. and the next day i just couldn't do it and i threw up. it was horrible. i even got some on chris's sock but i actually gave them to him. hahaha(: but seeing chris there for me just made me go wow, he really loves me. he cleaned up everything i threw up&made it seem like nothing even happened. i ruined yesterday which was actually our oneyearanniversary, but chris didnt care. all he cared about was that i'd feel better. im so thankful to have him in my life. and i just hope this relationship of ours keeps growing stronger & stronger.

im young and im still learning each day. many people help me grow & im so thankful to have them in my life. i hope to have an amazing year. i can already see 2009 will be spectacular and god has a plan for me & newstart. :)